I've always been good with words when I was able to write them on paper but not so much when it came to speaking my feelings orally. When I try to express myself out loud my tongue gets tied up into a knot and I lose my thoughts before I ever even get them in order to speak them in a sentence. That's why I'm so quick to say "hey, listen to the lyrics of this song" or to find a picture with a quote that says exactly how I feel. It's not that I don't feel that way or need to steal someone else's feelings, it's just that someone else may have put what I want to say together where you're able to read/hear it so much better than if I were to try to tell you. When I say that everything about you leaves me completely twisted inside, I don't mean that in a bad way.
When I look at you, it's like nothing in the world exists outside of you. You are all I see. Every inch of your 6 feet whatever inch frame. Every bit of that I am absolutely in love with. I have said before but i'll say it again, I wish you could see yourself thru my eyes. I wish you could feel an OUNCE of what I feel for you. You would then understand that no matter what you may think or how sneaky you may think me to be, there is nobody else in my life, in my eyes, and in my heart other than you. You consume every waking thought. I wake up with you every morning not wanting to leave you, I think about you all day and I long to come home to you each afternoon even if we don't always get along. I know that I'm not perfect and that we don't have the perfect relationship but you are honestly my best friend and the person I want to come to with every thought that crosses my mind. You are without a doubt the person i want to spend the rest of my life with.
You know me at times better than I know myself even if I don't admit that to you. You give me something to look forward to every day knowing that I have you in my life. You understand me when no one else does and I can't thank you enough for wrapping your arms around me during the times that I need you the most. I love you, I love everything about you. I love that you just get me. I love that we think the same way about so many things even tho we are totally weird. I love that in sooooo many ways, you as I are one and the same. I love watching you play your guitar, the way you close your eyes and get lost in the music. I could listen to you for hours and hours and never get tired of it, EVER. That place you go when you get lost while youre playing, that's how I feel when I am in your arms. Like nothing can touch me, it's just me and my abyss.
i love you for everything that you are and I always will because you have made me understand what I've missed all these years. I'm so lucky that we started out as friends and built a friendship without the complexities of going straight into a relationship and having to learn each other as we go. I'm grateful that we spent so many hours getting no know one another without ever actually knowing one another. I am grateful that YOU were there thru one of the most difficult times in my life when I had nobody else to turn to or talk to. You were there just like you still are when memories wrack my brain and my heart. Thank you for that. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for being everything I never knew I needed.
